When I'm at school I feel like I have to show that I'm intelligent or that I have some type of smarts about me. I feel like when you sound uneducated then people tend to think of you that way an they may even think "what is a girl like her doing here, she can't even speak right." So, I begin to separate my words, for instance, instead of saying "won't" I sometimes say "will not." I also try to finish my words, so instead of asking "where you goin" I ask "where are you going." This makes me feel like I fit in with the crowd although like I stated it just isn't who I am, but I do what I feel like I have to do.
I have three jobs and they are all in different atmostpheres. I am a server at a resturant, I work at a hospital as a patient sitter, and I work on campus at Sparty's. With being in these different environments I am able be who I am today and who I might become one day. When I'm older I might just grow out of the laziness and speak and use my word the way I am supposed to, better yet, the way others feel I should. When I'm at the restaurant I can alternate my grammar use. I don't necessarily have be so proper or so prefect with me speech. I do have to pronounce my words more clearly than I would at home but not as much as I feel like I should in class, because the people that come in sometimes speak the way I do at home on a regular or maybe they just feel comfortable and feel like they don't have to speak so studious at dinner.
When I am at the hospital I try to be the best I can be because there are a lot of doctors and very important people around. I try to use Standard English an use what I was taught in grade school. Now, because I work on campus at Sparty's I can speak with comfort. The customer are usually around my age and they might even feel the same way I do about the whole "Standard English" situation so there isn't much pressure to be more than what I want to be at that exact moment.
Writing is a little different for me. I've become so accustomed to being lazy and not saying or spelling my words out all the time, that I sometimes find myself abbreviating my words in my papers for class. This is not a good thing. When I'm on networking sites or even text messing different people. I find myself saying "wanna" instead of "want to," I use the sayings "um" and "like" way more than a normal person should. This affects me more than a person would think. I believe they way I read and write affects the way I speak in a big way. I even spell "omg" as to say "oh my goodness" or "bff" for "best friend" verbally.
I'm not "dumb" or "unintelligent" because of the words I choose to use in my everyday speech but this world is a crazy place to be and there are people that will push you out or label you because of the grammar you decide to use at a certain time or place. That's why the saying "there's a time and place for everything" never fails. I try to make my decisions wisely- whether I'm at home, work, school or even when I'm text messaging or emailing a friend or a professor. This could be important, I'm glad I'm only 19 yrs old.
